abah.

i had a call from abah.

"esok abah masok ijn. just a normal check up. nothing to worry."

dalam hati dah taw. this so called "normal check up" is not gonna be so normal by the way abah cakap. if it is normal he wouldn't told me about this thing since abah memang akan selalu buat check up once in a while kat ijn.

only few days after abah keluar from ijn that i knew he actually had a small operation. katanya saluran darah ke jantung tersumbat or something. i don't know the whole story but it is all because of Mr. C or also known as Mr. Cholesterol.

i am in the middle of my war of finishing all the printings untuk final assessments, and paper ctu untuk distudy. apa rasa aku masa itu.? kosong. nak balek umah tak boleh, gap assessments ngan paper dekat sangat. duit dah la tak cukup. and i have no one to understand that i am so miserable.

lepas assessment studio lighting i went back dengan tren. sampai umah teros naek atas jumpe abah. tengah baring depan tv. aish rase nak nanges je tengok abah. memang la dah keluar ward, dah balek umah. tapi knowing he had gone through an operation and i wasn't there, ralat rasenye.

abah is losing weight. dah kurus. but he's getting better, perhaps. he's on a one week cuti dan sedang berehat dengan aman di rumah. he looks more calm la. takde annoying phone calls, emails from the office, he looks so peace. makan pon dah sikit je. i know he's in pain. sabar je la abah.

hopefully you'll eat a healthier diet lepas neyh. keje jangan hectic sangat. semoga you'll get well soon. tolong jage diri baik-baik sebab i love you so much.

:(